WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE YOU?

This crushed me.

Why do you have to be you?

A cruel thing said to me by a former friend, said to intentionally bully and cause pain.

I mean, imagine the derision and disdain that goes into a statement like that. The air of superiority and judgment.

Why do you have to be you?

I don’t understand it. I try every day to be a generous and kind person and go out of my way to be supportive and uplifting to others.

I go out of my way to give positive reinforcement and recognition and even financial support.

I’m not perfect, far from it. I can be moody, into my own head. I need positive reinforcement, and I can get really down on myself and lose confidence when I don’t get it. I can forget to put others first.

That’s why I try so hard to go out of my way to give kudos and support to others…I know what it feels like to not get it.

I’ve tried to make peace with this person repeatedly. They used to be a good friend.

And yet…

Why do you have to be you?

I don’t know.

I’m going to have to think about that for a while.

If I come up with a good answer I’ll let you know.

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